I had difficulty wrapping my heart around the message my Guides had given me. God knew that I was more than ready for a miracle. But what, exactly, had I prayed for? Pain and exhaustion? I knew there was another answer, and that it would make itself known when I was ready to embrace it. In this moment, truth eluded me; fear had drowned out my inner voice. Deep down I was aware that my physical imbalance was only telling me part of the real story, that I needed to look beyond its surface to understand its full meaning. First, however, I had to force myself to take a good long look in the mirror.
It wasn't pretty. Wrapped around my right side, in a straight line halfway across my stomach, were eight raised, bee sting-like welts. The rest of the itchy rash was beyond my field of vision. Standing with my back to the bathroom mirror, while holding a hand mirror in front of me, was the only way I could see it. Had I not known what I was looking at, I would have guessed that an angry artist had gotten carried away with a can of bright red spray paint. My soul was screaming, but the silent cries fell on deaf ears. What was I so afraid of? Why couldn't I hear what Spirit wanted me to hear?
Discouraged, I went back to my room and got into bed. The pain was worse than it had been before. Tears fell as I slowly curled my body into a ball.
"I need you," I said to the silence.
We're with you, my Guides whispered.
"I know that I came down with shingles for a reason. But I'm not seeing the bigger picture. Please tell me what I'm missing.
Are you asking us to connect the dots for you?
You have to look at this illusion with your heart, Love. Only then will you have access to the hidden truth.
"It's hard enough to look at it with my eyes."
Because It hurts your eyes to look at it.
Imagine that you are having a healing session with a client right now. What wisdom would you offer her?
"I would tell her that a painful emotional experience that had been buried in her cellular memory is now asking to be acknowledged and released."
Yes. Why now?
"She is letting go of the pain from her past."
"She is in the process of healing and transforming her life."
"She is making room for miracles."